I never did a drug until I was 28 years old. I was playing for the Pittsburgh Penguins and we had just beaten the NY Rangers and we went out with the guys for a few beers which is something we always did. Someone handed me something (I know now that it was cocaine, I didn’t know what it was then) in a nightclub in NYC and told me to do it. That 30 second decision to do cocaine sent my life into a spiral for 24 years of addiction. I didn’t realize I had the addictive gene and I activated it that night.

A few months later, we were going for our third Stanley Cup with the Penguins and I had a horrific injury on the ice during a game against the NY Islanders. At that point, I got a taste of painkillers…once I unleashed the beast of addiction, I lost everything including my family, my marriage, my career. There were many days filled with depression, anger, frustration – it was easier to take more drugs to numb the pain than work through things.

I didn’t think I needed help, I thought I could muscle through it. Finally, I surrendered that I had the disease of addiction and accepted help from my family and friends. I am the only one who can keep myself sober, one day at a time.

Fellowship of AA, routine exercise, talk therapy

I wanted to give back with a message of hope and recovery to those mired in addiction. If I can help one person, it will be worth it. I have built a non-profit foundation called Power Forward to help remove the stigma of addiction through educational programs, prevention messages, stories of recovery and hope. I also host a radio show called Crosscheck Substance Abuse Radio which focuses on real talk about addiction with local and national guests who share their stories of hope and recovery. We often focus on dual diagnosis which is very common in addiction. Mental health awareness and drug awareness go hand in hand.

People have been very supportive of my recovery and of my Power Forward foundation and my Crosscheck Substance Abuse Radio program. I have a new purpose in life to share my story in hopes that others may find their way to recovery.