From an early age, I learned that the best way to deal with my mother’s narcissism was to take care of her emotional needs over my own, and not shine my own light too brightly. I was also sexually abused by my father between the ages of 4 and 7, and I coped by dissociating and trying to pretend those experiences didn’t happen. The deep shame I have carried with me ever since has affected my entire life, mostly operating in my unconscious. It’s impacted my ability to have healthy relationships. I know the shame was also what drove me to achieve and strive for perfection in my career. It was like skating on thin ice – I had to keep moving or I would crash through and be drowned by the bottomless depths of the darkness. But eventually, I couldn’t keep running, and those suppressed feelings and memories caught up with me. I was in my mid-40’s with what seemed like the perfect life: a successful career as an ObGyn, married to another successful professional with 2 lovely daughters. And yet I was miserable. There was a hole in me that was getting bigger and I couldn’t fill it. I didn’t know why. A shoulder injury that ended my surgical career eventually opened the door to my healing. I realized that my physical pain had a deeper cause, and I needed to find it. I already knew from helping women heal that our emotions and physical health are linked, but quickly I discovered that the conventional approach fell far short of what I needed. It was when I started an Energy Medicine certification course that I started accessing and releasing the grief that was stored in my body. As I started healing, I had the courage to leave my abusive marriage but I was nowhere near done. Over the past decade, I have continued to seek out ways of healing on all levels, and have truly experienced the interwoven nature of my physical, emotional, energetic, and spiritual bodies. There were times where the PTSD was so bad that I could not work, and I had to close my holistic healing practice. I’ve been hiding in the shadows for the past decade while doing a lot of deep healing, afraid that I would get triggered in a public space or when doing my professional work. But now I am heeding my Soul’s call to re-emerge with a new purpose. I’m scared and I’m excited all at the same time. Facing my fear of being visible, I am having to really dig deep (again!). Sharing my story and shining a light on my shame is now a key part of my own healing, and my hope is that through sharing my experiences and wisdom gained I can help others.

I now understand that my parents were both suffering from their own childhood trauma that -to this day- they have not been able to acknowledge or heal. I also understand that, as painful as these experiences were, they have shaped my own life in a way that supports my Soul’s journey for this lifetime. It is not a coincidence that I chose to be an ObGyn. Passionate about empowering other women, I now know that part of me was also trying to empower myself. But beyond the power of listening and helping women be heard, I was woefully lacking in having the tools to go deeper. The current healthcare system is in itself very often disempowering, and it does not support seeing and addressing the health of the whole person. Our minds and our brains are not separate from the rest of our being. Mental health is so closely linked with our biochemistry, our physical structure, our emotions, our energy fields, and our spiritual beliefs. Mental Health challenges are not just something that is “in our heads” and gets “fixed” by cognitive therapy and/or medication. We have to change the conversation in order to move beyond that model. The Greek word Psyche means “Soul”, but our current approach to psychological well-being leaves out the very core of who we are. We each come in with a blueprint for our Soul, and when we are imbalanced in any one of these areas it creates dis-ease.

In 2009, when I was studying Energy Medicine, I realized firsthand the often invisible influence of our emotions and traumatic experience on our health – and that there was another way to help myself and others heal.

When people understand who they are from the inside out, they feel empowered to let go of all that they are not, and embrace the freedom of being themselves. I draw upon each person’s Soul blueprint to understand what is going on underneath the surface, and what they need to heal. Currently, I leverage my experience and expertise in Women’s Health, Functional Medicine, Genomic Medicine, Energy Medicine, Psychic Intuition, Human Design, and Astrology to help people see who they truly are and guide them to what they need to restore the balance of mind, body, and spirit.