I originally went into psychiatry after having a close family member struggle with panic attacks. It interfered with their ability to work or maintain a social life or even fulfill basic household obligations like returning phone calls. I was really struck by the impact that mental health symptoms can bring throughout someone’s life.

For myself, I was already in psychiatry and actively studying integrative medicine when I was affected personally, but I had a really difficult time with postpartum depression. I kept functioning only through sheer grit and willpower, pasting on a smiling face for my baby, forcing myself to get anything done at home, just wanting to sleep all the time and eat junk. I kept going to work because my patients needed me but I was not getting any enjoyment or satisfaction from any of it. My doctor at the time wanted me to go on medication, but I was breastfeeding, and back then we didn’t know if that was safe or not. I begged them to give me one month of trying integrative medicine first before we went the pharmaceutical route. I exercised every single day, meditated and did infant massage with my baby, and started a powerful nutrient supplement to support the biological side of things. And I asked for help – calling friends, going to therapy. And when the month was up, I was better enough to keep following the integrative path and stay off meds.

It was really scary. It feels powerless and hopeless at times, and just taking a pill felt like a band-aid that wasn’t addressing what was really causing my pain.
That experience actually affected my career choices for a long time. The whole thing was so traumatic that I’ve only recently started returning my focus to my prior passion for women’s mental health. I had to set that aside until now when my kiddo is in high school. It was just too triggering to focus on working with moms before because listening to the stories of their own postpartum struggles just took me right back to that dark time in my own life. I feel like I have enough distance now to be of service while staying objective and supporting my own wellness journey.

I was first exposed to integrative medicine during the year before I started medical school. I had been working in a call center that wasn’t very busy on the weekends, so I picked up stacks of books from the public library and read when there were gaps. I just happened to pick up Bill Moyers’ “Healing and the Mind” and Andy Weil’s “Spontaneous Healing”. Realizing there was real science behind this and that “real” doctors were taking this seriously was a huge shift for me and changed the whole course of my career.

Of course, after having my own experience of recovering from postpartum depression without medication utilizing a combination of integrative treatments just solidified my conviction that this was the right path for me, and that everyone needed access to the same tools.

I use a whole variety of techniques, and the treatment plan is individualized – created in partnership with the patient. I use anything from supplements to herbs, to mind-body techniques, to movement or dietary interventions, and more.

It’s much better these days! When I first started, I was greeted with a lot of skepticism. But nowadays, with all the positive research findings plus the official academic and board-certification recognition of IM as its own evidence-based specialty, I find it’s much more common for colleagues to be asking my opinion on the topic, rather than doubting its effectiveness.